You performed above and beyond what any reasonable person would have expected of you. You can't possibly be as terrible as you think.
And, anyone who thinks that way of you clearly doesn't have the right idea about who you are; a good person, who always does his best.
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It won't get there, but I've heard people say that writing letters to people that they will never see again helps them with their lingering pain. Is something like that possible for you?
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I can... close the book on it, sort of.
I just wish I could have finished talking to my father before I got pulled into battle. To tell him how I was sorry for being a terrible son.
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And, anyone who thinks that way of you clearly doesn't have the right idea about who you are; a good person, who always does his best.
...
It won't get there, but I've heard people say that writing letters to people that they will never see again helps them with their lingering pain. Is something like that possible for you?
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Maybe it will be. I don't know what I'd even say to him. I know he wanted to apologize too, but... we never really talked about our feelings.